TTFN (lame, I know)

It's the Friday before Memorial Day. As of 5pm I'm officially on vacation!

I'm excited and thrilled, but I'm also STRESSED. What's that about?
Seriously, I haven't been sleeping. I can't fall asleep and if I do, I wake up stressing about something that has nothing to do with me. I toss and turn and then finally catch some zzz's right as my alarm is going off. Strange thing is, I'm not really tired. Given that, stress is the only logical answer.

I think it's the stress of getting everything organized pre-trip. I've got a weekend trip to the Jersey Shore to plan for and then immediately after, my vacation. So, I'm really packing for two things at once. Packing stresses me out to begin with, so this isn't helping. I'm very much afraid of forgetting that key thing that can't be bought or replaced. I've got lists up the wazoo and have spelled out every packing scenario. It's not pretty, but it's how I roll.

But, the end is near. In three hours I expect the stress to just flee from my body. Yeah right.

Stress aside, have a fun and safe memorial day weekend and I'll be in touch post-vaca.

One week!

So it's been a little while since I've posted. A) I haven't had much to say and B) I don't really think anyone is reading this anyway.

But here I am. I may just be wasting time at work, but that's OK.

My long-awaited vacation is only one week away! In that time I've got a bunch of things to take care of as well as a bachelorette party to attend. It's going to be quite the weekend/week and I CAN NOT WAIT!

I'm excited to leave work behind...FAR behind. My goal is to not talk or even think about that dreaded "w" word. As someone pointed out, I won't even say "the TV doesn't work", I'll go with "the TV is broken" or "the TV doesn't seem to be functioning". Yes, it's that extreme. But isn't that the point of a vacation?

Ex

I was playing around on myspace the other day (busy day at work) and came across my ex. I was kind of curious as to what he had been up to (although more so about how he looked because he had gone kind of downhill at the end of our relationship), so I took a look.
Turns out he's married and has been for almost two years. Crazy!
He had wedding pictures on his page, which as someone pointed out is a very girl like thing to do.
So yes, it was weird to see. But it also made me very happy that I wasn't the one in the white dress. I'm happy for him, but happier for me!
And in case you were wondering, he looked exactly the same as four years ago (or however long it was) but maybe a little heavier. And, I'm definitely better looking than his wife. Now I'm being catty. :)
I guess no matter how un-interested you are in the person, it's still going to be a little odd to see where there life has gone. Right?

17 Days

Back when we booked our vacation we had over 90 days to wait. I'm happy to say that we're finally down to 17!



In preparation for bathing suit time, i've put myself on a somewhat strict diet and have been vigilant about getting to the gym. See picture above for my motivation.


I also started tanning in preparation for the DR sun. I know it's horrible, but I just feel so much better when I'm not pale white.


But back to the gym for a moment...I'm happy to say that i've broken the 3 mile mark (3 times in a row!). I'm psyched and amazed at how it really isn't as hard as I thought. Granted I'm slow, but still. I've also been impressed with how much I'm able to push myself.

Last night for example, I didn't think I'd make it past a mile. Then I pushed myself to 2 and then somehow kept pushing and made it to 3.1. I probably could have gone a little farther, but my body was TIRED! But I'm excited.

I am so ready for a vacation! I haven't been on an official long vacation in about two years and that is way TOO long. Never again! I had time off around the holiday's, but to me taking time off to do nothing is not as redeeming as going somewhere special.

I've actually got another vacation coming up in two months. Crazy, right?

Eh

Do you ever feel just "eh"?

I can't really explain it because it's subtle, but things just seem a little off. I'm not unhappy, but I'm also not busting at the seams with happiness. I think its times like this that my "What's Next" mentality comes back in to the picture.

I really don't have anything to complain about, yet I also don't have anything (besides upcoming vacations) that I'm really excited/happy about. I get up every morning, go to work, go the gym after work and then go home. While I'm happy with the routine, it's definitely not exciting and I can't say I really look forward to each day. However, there's not much I can do to change this routine, so I guess it's up to the weekends to inspire me.

The weekends are great, I'm happy to not be at work, but again, they're not very exciting. I'm usually pretty tired from the week so the weekends end up being a little lazy. Again, there's nothing wrong with this situation, I just think I need something new. Maybe.

Does this mean it's time for a change? A big change? A little change?

I'm not sure what it means, but the wheels are starting to turn.